If I had a penny for all the best friends I left behind when I kept moving from town to town, state to state. I would be able to afford an iphone and I know is worth like worth $600-$800, ok maybe I wouldn't be able to buy an iphone more like a pack of gum. Or maybe a magazine I didn't have a lot of best friends well I did but like a bunch, but I had a lot of friends. Some I thought were my friends but turned out to be users or just left me for others. But making friends is hard and keeping them is harder, I've lost friends to the "in crowd", suicide, or moving. I love them dearly but not all of them but now that I have moved again to another town, I have to be the "new girl" and start making friends and blah blah. Its difficult for me because am very shy and quiet, I hate socializing (not all the time), you can say am not very out there like others. But once you get to know me am the opposite of what I am and am hiliarious. But I have know idea why I always freak when it comes to meeting new people?
xoxo
stephanie
Saturday, July 18, 2009
First Blog/Hot n' Cold
Am so happy to be starting my first blog because I have been getting really tired of writing in my journal, and getting hand cramps. But now that I have my own computer I can type down all my feelings or thoughts and say what I want to say.
So everyone knows, or some people, know the song "Hot n' Cold" by Katy Perry and I can really relate to the song because lately I have been in a Hot n' Cold relationship with my girlfriend Nichole. We have been together for like 5 months, but it feels like a year she is funny, sweet, honest, and sometimes gullable. I have never met anyone like her and am so happy to have her in my life, but the times we have been together we've been fighting non-stop for suspecting cheating or lying. Most of the times we don't even know what we're even fighting about and it hurts me the most, that I can't deal with it anymore. The only support I can get is from my grandmother and best friend both have been there for me, when I needed someone to lean on. My best friend thinks I should move on and find somebody else but I can't because I don't know if I can find anyone to love me. My grandmother thinks am crazy for being in a relationship in such a young age, but she says I should still be strong no matter what and I know I can be strong. It's just to complicated and frustraing to be dealing with a situation like this she wants this and then that, she crys for something I did then its something she did. But no matter what she does I love her to death and if things don't work out its fine, atleast she will find somone better....I hope not.
xoxo
Stephanie
So everyone knows, or some people, know the song "Hot n' Cold" by Katy Perry and I can really relate to the song because lately I have been in a Hot n' Cold relationship with my girlfriend Nichole. We have been together for like 5 months, but it feels like a year she is funny, sweet, honest, and sometimes gullable. I have never met anyone like her and am so happy to have her in my life, but the times we have been together we've been fighting non-stop for suspecting cheating or lying. Most of the times we don't even know what we're even fighting about and it hurts me the most, that I can't deal with it anymore. The only support I can get is from my grandmother and best friend both have been there for me, when I needed someone to lean on. My best friend thinks I should move on and find somebody else but I can't because I don't know if I can find anyone to love me. My grandmother thinks am crazy for being in a relationship in such a young age, but she says I should still be strong no matter what and I know I can be strong. It's just to complicated and frustraing to be dealing with a situation like this she wants this and then that, she crys for something I did then its something she did. But no matter what she does I love her to death and if things don't work out its fine, atleast she will find somone better....I hope not.
xoxo
Stephanie
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