First Blog/Hot n' Cold

Am so happy to be starting my first blog because I have been getting really tired of writing in my journal, and getting hand cramps. But now that I have my own computer I can type down all my feelings or thoughts and say what I want to say.

So everyone knows, or some people, know the song "Hot n' Cold" by Katy Perry and I can really relate to the song because lately I have been in a Hot n' Cold relationship with my girlfriend Nichole. We have been together for like 5 months, but it feels like a year she is funny, sweet, honest, and sometimes gullable. I have never met anyone like her and am so happy to have her in my life, but the times we have been together we've been fighting non-stop for suspecting cheating or lying. Most of the times we don't even know what we're even fighting about and it hurts me the most, that I can't deal with it anymore. The only support I can get is from my grandmother and best friend both have been there for me, when I needed someone to lean on. My best friend thinks I should move on and find somebody else but I can't because I don't know if I can find anyone to love me. My grandmother thinks am crazy for being in a relationship in such a young age, but she says I should still be strong no matter what and I know I can be strong. It's just to complicated and frustraing to be dealing with a situation like this she wants this and then that, she crys for something I did then its something she did. But no matter what she does I love her to death and if things don't work out its fine, atleast she will find somone better....I hope not.

xoxo
Stephanie